Unsurpassable.
You colour my sky blue,
today’s sky is just for you.
It’s vastness and clarity
exposes our love, dried up and empty.
You enter as I leave and
sometimes we both grind to a halt
unsure of what we should do.
‘Thank you for your time,
and you can thank me for mine
and after that’s said
we can just forget it’.
Some guy sings a song
and within its fragile composition
I draw the strength to piece my life back together.
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My motivational picture to get me through my deadlines!!! HAHA goodluck to everyone going through exams!! It will be over soon and the sunshine is beckoning!! Sunshine you tease!!!
0‘If we had a keen vision and feeling of all ordinary human life, it would be like hearing the grass grow and the squirrel’s heart beat, and we should die of that roar which lies on the other side of silence. As it is, the quickest of us walk about well wadded with stupidity.’
George Eliot, Middlemarch.
0Beauty.
It seems everybody knows what it means to hope,
is that not what we all do every living day?
We hope that another is just around the corner
and the sun will remain constant
smiling down at our faces.
I hope your soul has built enough barriers
and your skin can withstand the cold.
Because today I have realized
that underneath all your hardened clothing
you are nothing but flesh and bones.
You hope a little morsel will be enough
and your smile will bring you no harm.
But it is only when the sun disappears
you allow the darkness to devour your fears
and as you begin to chase empty memories
you glisten underneath the stars.
0Let’s fall in love.
First love
Strange love,
it feels the same every time
however, this is good,
this is fine
not just another cliche.
You are not the exception
our love is not transcendental
however, neither is it comfortable
it is something else.
Something strange,
something absurd,
we will probably end up breaking each other’s heart
but does it really matter,
does anything really matter at all.
0Crossroads.
Once upon a time, we were crazy for each other
inseparable, insatiable, driven purely by desire
whispering chinese into each others ears,
how we used to wile away the hours
unaware of the phenomenon we held so dear.
What are we now to each other
as we gradually become aware
of the past that has long forsaken us
of the present that continues to disarm us
of a future that holds nothing dear to us.
Nevertheless, we continue in our separate paths,
but maybe one day we shall meet again
finding ourselves forced to make decisions
that could irrevocably change or lives forever,
or not.
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“As they stood there together, Ekwefi’s mind went back to the days when they were young. She had married Anene because Okonkwo was too poor then to marry. Two years after her marriage to Anene she could bear it no longer and she ran away to Okonkwo. It had been early in the morning. The moon was shining. She was going to the stream to fetch water. Okonkwo’s house was on the way to the stream. She went in and knocked at his door and he came out. Even in those days he was not a man of many words. He just carried her into his bed and in the darkness began to feel around her waist for the loose end of her cloth.”
Chinua Achebe, Running in the family.
0Sudden and Unexpected.
I listen to your words,
as you reach out for my hands,
which holds sustained
all the world’s indifference.
A whisper of a sound
unfamiliar to my senses
which you release
from another corner of the universe.
It seems that I am falling in love
with a faraway man,
and everyday he absorbs me
into words I do not understand.
0What do I find the most hardest in life?
Inconsistency, indeterminacy, uncertainty!!
But it is not life that hinders me, hassles me and complicates my own life. It is me! It is me and no-one else who is inconsistent. Who lives her life undetermined and always uncertain. I hate making decisions, choosing options, answering questions.
It is this that jars with my life and makes it difficult for me to grow up. To accept the fact that I too age. Haha! University life. English Literature. I wake up daily uncertain to why I am here. Fact and fiction all blurs into one and the droop in my eyelids remain permanent.
Second year is coming to an end and it feels like I still have so much more to learn. Is this it? I ask myself, will I really be graduating next year with my mind as empty as it is now? Will I really qualify to be an adult and live among adults after I leave this sanctuary I have become so used to? Is that all it takes, to be an adult? Simply the fact that we age, grow up and acquire some form of degree. Then what? Get a job. Get married. Start a family.
Oh wow. I am really not looking forward to gradation.
But who knows where life will take you! What surprises, happiness and laughter still awaits you. Of course there will be sorrows, rejection and heartbreaks along the ways but those things are inevitable but also evanescent. Such pains only last for a moment. Life will carry on being lived. Whether there is any predetermined journey to our path or not, one cannot run away from ones destiny forever.
One should not fear, what one does not know. Life is wonderful because it is inconsistent, in-determined and always uncertain. Maybe I will be in Russia one day where all my favorite authors once lived, or Japan the heart of animes, manga and Studio Gibli, or Korea where many of my true love resides patiently awaiting for my arrival. One day. I will go everywhere my heart desires. Devour every spicy thing my mouth comes across. Witness breathtaking sunsets and beautiful sleepy sunrises. Adopt an elephant, live among the penguins and sleep next to a sloth when the day comes to an end.
There is so much still left to do. Therefore, I should not fear the unavoidable act of growing up. Instead, one should realize how important it is to live. Just to live. Love simply to love. Ahh! I started talking about something and here I am finishing in an completely different tangent. But, that’s okay. Is it not? Because while we are still alive, we have the potential to be anything we can possibly wish to be. We should not defer our fates. Just hold on tight and laugh the whole way through!
What say you compadre!!!!!!
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